Condition of Return

 
You'll never know
what you did to me
you took me so low
to a place i ne'er
would have hoped to go

You'll never know
how much you hurt me
I near don't want you to know
For back to you is a place
I can never let my Self go

I feel I can't love anymore
Your betrayal so deep
broke my to my core
My heart is so broken
My very soul was what you tore

Why do you return so oft?
Why do I see you again?
Make not my heart soft!
Not again, not for you
Not lest your eyes again be soft

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2009

Bottle of Secrets

  
I collect my emotions
in a crystal bottle
I take them out daily
and hide them inside
Every day i wear a new one
and when i'm done,
i drop it in the bottle

ooaah, my heart is bursting
aaohh, that broken bottle
-where i hide things
I never take out -
turned onyx black
with all the feelings
I forgot inside

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2009

A Girl I Knew

  
Live life as a shadow
see if you still matter
You wonder if anyone
saw your life shatter
are you ever noticed at all?
You're completely thrown
when a compliment
is bestowed
You wonder how
anyone you'd ever know
could call you beautiful

Broken bride,
it's alright
You were so afraid
you lost so much weight
so unhealthy
dwindling away
but it was what you needed
and now you're gaining
or trying
you know you need it,
but it's terrifying.

I see your eyes
hazed over and afraid
Open wide,
What is there to diagnose?
You want to live fully
but it's what you fear most
You want to give love
but you're afraid to get close.
What is left inside?
you think you're a shadow
a shell....

Poor girl,
open your heart
try to feel, begin anew
You have no confidence,
don't know what to do
You're afraid of what you lack
but to your Self you are is not true
slowly open up your heart
go ahead, give life a try
don't be afraid to love
let it be slow to come by...

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2009

sad eyes

  
Sad eyes
hide brilliant lies
Starry eyes
unsatisfied

Secret thoughts
Puckered lips
Hidden loves
Sinking ships

Oh my love
not my heart
No my love
please don't start

Velvet touch
with no emotion
All too much
for no devotion

Sad eyes
suffering sighs
Starry eyes
wondering why...

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2009

Death of the Heart

  
The ultimate death
is the death of the heart
for it goes beyond the grave

The death of the heart
is a death of a thousand times
awakening to a thousand more lives

It is one that breaks a man
or a woman, down to their core
and yet makes you crave love more

The death of the heart is one
that makes one long for the grave
yet crave life like never before

It is a death, a brokenness
that begs not to be revived
yet gasps for life all at once

It is a death that is ever recurring
Some may escape it
others are ever haunted by it

Tis a morbid occupation
to die so severely
and to die so often

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2009

Sponge in the Drain

 
My memories linger
My thoughts won't just turn to dust
That life just wont wash away
It's just rubble filling in the cave

My heart is like a sponge stuck in the drain
Everything filters through
Soak me up and squeeze me out
Sop up the blood, clean up the stain

Wash me with soap and suds
Let the blur sting in my eyes
You were that light that shone bright
but you blew a fuse and I got misused

I thought you were a lovely candle
Turns out you're just a lighter
You can't catch a wick
and you get too hot to stay lit

You were like a bird in the blue
Never expected the sky to break
and you got rained out of the sky
and hit the ground, never runnin'

You're like the toothpick
that got stuck in the holder
You never made it out and
you won't make it back to my mouth

I'm like a sponge in the drain
Stick me in the dishwasher
Wash me, squeeze me free of sorrow
Don't worry, I'll be fine tomorrow

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2009

Lie To Me

    

Lie to me
So I can know
when you're
telling the truth

Hide from me
for when you hide
that's when I'll know
where to find you

Say nothing to me
For when your lips
keep their secrets
that's when I know you

Hold your breath
for when you
stop breathing, that's when
I truly know you're alive

Silence your heart
for when it stops beating
thats when I hear
and I know your secrets

Stop your smiles
let me read your eyes
for when you look at me
they tell when you're happy

Let no food pass your lips
for when you stop eating
I can recognize how true
is your appetite for life

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2009