Derailed

What you are to me
    is not real, is not true
       just a story my heart
          tells
when it lies to me

I wish you knew me
  as I wish I knew you
      But my heart has these
         ridiculous,
empty pleas

Your voice, heartbeat
   make me fall in love
      but who you will be
         is not
the man I need

I wish sometimes
   with all my empty love
      and my bleeding heart
         that you
were the one for me

Oh your songs to me
   and your voice in my dreams
       are so sweet.
The way you hold me tight
     and kiss me in my sleep

The way you wish you could keep me
     hidden, safe,
         tucked in your pocket like a perfect pet
The way you dream of me,
     when you're asleep
         when you're awake

I wish it were all real.

But I'm not real for you.
   my future, your terrifying dream.
You're not real for me.
   you're my waking dream

What you are to me

    is not real, is not true

       just a story my heart 

          tells 

when it lies to me

I wish I knew what 

    I wanted you to be

        I wish I could find

           a way 

to say goodbye, or hello

Your voice sang to me

   all I ever need

      your breath is all 

         I ever 

want to feel.

I wish it was you

   but we weren't meant

      for each other.

         I can't love

myself. So how could I love you?

You've never known love

     Terrified of the very thing

        that our hearts are tending towards

          With no way

to stop this train, we're waiting to get derailed...

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2011