In Dreams

It is in dreams
      that I find what I seek
But I find no joy
      in that from which I wake
For dreams are only dreams
      and from them I cannot take
When I wake from slumber
     I find my heart is weak

What heartache I find!
When burrowed deep in
      the corners of my mind
What tragedy there is!
To always dream
      but never grasp

In my mind I live
     over, over and again
A love with me
     a love I can give
A life I long for
     the way I would live
But when I wake I am
     nowhere; I cannot pretend

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Intermission

Hello dear Readers!

I'm taking a little bit of time off from my Midnight Adventures for a little while;-- I'm working on a full-length screenplay, so I'm devoting my time to that as I work towards finishing it.

Wish me luck! I'll be back soon enough! :)

-Michele

Only You

At the time
You were the only one
the only one to know
know my heart
know my mind
to know my love

You were gone
You left me so hastily
and though it was only you
someone new will come
He will find, learn, explore
more than you ever would

Though you once were
it seems you are no more
My heart is fresh
ready to see the world
in a better way than before
Though before, it was with you

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

100 Posts!

Yes, I've reached 100 pieces of Prose and Poetry!! Just thought I should share that :) It's kind of an exciting milestone to realize that I've written so much only since June.

That's all. Now that I've shared -- carry on :)

-Beloved

The Fear

There are times
when the fear
takes us over
It drives us in the way
we live and love

It is the fear that drives

our decisions

however drastic

or unforeseen

Sometimes it is the fear

that drives us

The fear that takes our hearts

and lets us go no further

It is the fear that keeps us,

keeps our hearts in check

It is fear that will keep you 

from loving, from caring at all

It will make you 

take back your heart

and hide, back at the start

It was the fear that
drove you away from me
The fear that stole your heart
as you ran into the dark
The fear that I would leave
as you knew I had to
but that I would leave,
forget you, and your love

You couldn't bear to see me go
the thought of heartbreak
the idea of losing me to time
So instead, you took your heart,

You ran so fast, I never saw you go,

Darling, even now I can't forget
I never wanted to see you go
and I hope this, you will regret
My heart aches at your insolence
cutting me off, ignoring my upset
Replacing me with someone who
won't care; whose love you won't share

Don't be so cold
I know you still care
It's not been too long
but wait much longer
and I can promise-
if you return
I won't be there...

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Loyal, Locked In.

  
Some hearts are loyal
some crave loyalty
Some stay on the surface
and some crave depth
For a heart like mine
a heart so loyal to yours
You've err'd in your way
Abandoned,
I'm still here

Locked in a room with you
You left me there alone
trapped with memories
with your breath
your scent
and time to think of you
You locked me inside
took the key and left
left me barely alive

Don't leave a loyal heart
leave me high and dry
leave me alone inside
Leave me with no reason
no rhyme.

Struggling, fighting

an internal war.

Come back, 

Release me

or give me my key

Where is the light?
Where is a lamp,
A phone-call,
A lifeline to you?
Nothing. No-one.
It's all gone,
all out of doors -
while I'm locked inside

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Lonely Night

There are some nights
like tonight
where the loneliness
is so strong
I wish you hadn't gone

How does a heart cope?
You vanished.
How can I come to terms
with losing
My closest friend in a moment

You were all I loved, wanted
You disappeared
I shared my heart and soul with you
Was it nothing?
I fell for you, but was left in tears

I thought I hurt or frightened you,
sent you running away
What have I done? No, now I realize...
I had it all wrong
It was never me - it was you all along.

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Endless longing

Several fortnights have I waited

and still I wait upon thee

My heart ails in my loveless luster

My soul wails, for I have naught

Suffering this loss be too much to bear

Oh my lord, my love,

wilt thou ever return to me?

Though I wait patient

I scarcely dare admit my longing

though all know tis thy love I long for....

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2009/ 2010

the eyes that once loved

What lust can do
is not so scant a thing
It can break your life
that takes your love's heart

Tis a ruinous lie
a passionate ploy
a word, a gesture
all so sly

but lust
comes without love
lust can destroy
those eyes that once love

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2009/ 2010

Missing.

The pain of missing someone
Someone you loved and lost
May be the starkest you ever feel

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Ladder Love

Perched on a ladder
I see you climbing ladder love
You're grasping a new rung,
still holding on to the last one

You've taken my heart
for granted, quick to depart,
You grabbed onto the next rung
Forsooth, quick to forget my heart

I see your longing
for commitment, so bizarre
longing to be committed to
but not wanting to commit too

I thought you didn't think
my heart to be worth your time
Guess I was wrong - it looks like
you think your heart wasn't worth mine

You always chided me, saying
don't let your love be like a ladder
Yet you did worse than I, finding the next,
before our end - as though I mattered not...

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Rootless

Oh drinking fool
with your drunken heart
You don't have to be
a beautiful disaster
You are not chaos
Your heart is a maze
and you feel trapped
by the walls and ceilings
that have you blocked out

You find yourself locked in
Your once open expanses
your endless valleys
have been taken over
by a maze of high walls
Running round and round
crashing into dead ends
getting more and more lost
more frantic as you go--

Stop!

Oh dear heart,
You need to be set free!
I'm watching you,
falling,
leaning, bending, broken
like a rootless tree
Your mind is twisting
like gnarled, knotted branches
You're rotting to your core

Slow down,
Find the living waters
take root by the streams
take a deep breath
and drink deep
Restore life to your core
be rotten no more
Cease to be lost
in the maze of your heart

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Love's Worth

 
Oh Lover, leave me as you do
I put too much worth on your heart
and you did not put enough on mine

I saw you as worth all my love
but you saw me worth neither
commitment nor time

Once again I gave love too freely
What seemed right was still too soon
I woke up to find you were never mine

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

loss? or gain?

   
Sometimes you lose so much,
you no longer have eyes
to see what you've gained

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Betrayed

  
I try to tell myself I'm fine
but I tend to lose my mind
Dear, I lose my thoughts
when you break my heart

I'm not sure what to do
There's no getting through to you
I wish I could read your mind
So maybe we could be okay

Love, you pushed me far away
I've never felt so betrayed
I wish you would just talk
so maybe I could mend my heart

Maybe you could give me closure
But I wish you'd regain composure
admit to me, baby say you love me
Darling, work through your fear with me

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Forget Me

Are you willing to lose me
to keep your cool?
Would you give me up
so that you could keep pretending?

You waited for me, wanted so long

Aft' you won me, so quick to forget me.

Won't you let it all go, let me know-
All this life here is so temporary.

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Not Like Running

Run. Run away.
Far, far away
Beyond the valleys of pain
The mountains of anguish,
Ignore the brewing storm
The heavy raindrop tears
The pelting hailstorm of reality
Run. Run away.

It's not like running
Don't run, not far away
You've raced so far
and hid so long
It's time to face it all
Time to be strong

Run through the storm
feel the pain on your face
Climb the highest mountains
So you can reach the top
and know you have conquered
with no more need to hide
Run through the valleys
let your feet feel the memories
Run, darling, Run
but don't run away

Run through it all
It's not like running away
Don't run away
but conquer it all
Conquer your fears,
hurt, and worst pitfalls
and when you've run
through it all
Run! Run!
back into my arms...!

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Liebe und Kummer

Mein liebling,
ich vermiss Dich so
Ich hab' es schon
so oft gesagt
Aber mein hertz
ist stumm for kummer
Herzleid, Du, mein herzleid

Was soll ich nur tun?
Ich hab' dich so gern
Das leben ist so einsam
Wenn ich niemand hab,
um mein herz zu teilen
Komm zurueck,
komm in meine arme rein

Hab' ich etwas verpasst?
Was soll ich nur tun
wenn ich nicht weiss
weshalb du leisse bleibst
Wieso sagst du
kein wort mir zu?
kein kuss, keine liebe

Sag es mir doch
Sag es mir bald
Schick mir ein kuss
eine briefchen
eine laecheln
Komm find mich
Umarm mir noch ein mal
Ja fluester mir leise zu...

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

J'étais de tout coeur avec vous...

Mon ami, mon amour
quest-ce que vous faites?
Where have you gone,
and why do you treat me so?

Your ways are unwarranted
Your stony coldness unwelcome
Je cherchez-vous
Où êtes-vous?
Je sais ce que je veux, mais vous...?

C'est dommage, c'est triste!
Je ne comprends rien
Appelle-moi,
S'il vous plaît!

Qui est-ce que vous aimez?
J'étais de tout coeur avec vous!
Je regrette ça....
ça ne fait rien plus
Vous m'avez oublié...!

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Don't Wake

Breathe, close your eyes
as you tilt your head back
listen to the rhythm of
your heart beating
your soul breathing
your spirit growing
you skin exhaling
Forget all your thoughts
and for one second
realize yourself
realize who you were;
are; who you've become
realize your potential

Hidden away from yourself
You've never realized
who you could be
were meant to be,
Why your feet
tread to the beat
the rhythm
that they do,
Take a moment
strain your ears
beyond what you can hear,
scour not your thoughts
but your spirit
press further, further
to your soul
pressed so far under

Free fall for a moment
You've always stood
so strong, so tough
Always hiding that insecrity
the vulnerability
behind those favorite eyes
the ones I love the most
Beneath that tough mouth
is a broken smile
that you've seen
or taken awhile
to recognize as broken
hurt, or
as potentially perfect

Swoon out of reality
let go and realize
your potential
of who you're meant to be
the sound of your footfalls
says so much about
who youve not dared to be
Dreamy eyed dreamer
stop waking up
come to your surreal senses
and see your soul through
the lenses you've so long
put aside, forgotten about
I woke you to your dreams
to all you're scared to see
don't be afraid of what
you've always known you
were meant to be

Fluttering flickering irises
see the world through
lights less dim
Not wrapped around
anyones finger
Wake up, wake to me
All you were vulnerable to
and all you've been scared
of being and doing, now you
have woken because of me
and I want to see you live
what your dreams have played
The want you have, is conflicted
by the fears you have
but sweet dreamer, let go and know
that the fear is unwarranted,
you were meant for the dreamworld
you've been sleeping through...

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Give Me a Thrill

  
I hope I frighten you
I hope I scare you half to death
I hope I'm all you ever wanted
but never thought you would have

I hope my love thrills you
I hope it drives you wild
I hope my love kills you
yes, I want it to, every once in awhile

I pray I bring you joy
I ask that your heart be rich
I pray you're all I need
To have love is to be rich

I hope I scare the hell outta you
I hope you do the same to me
I hope my love is all you need
Sweet love, stay here, with me

Though I ask for love, mush and tenderness
I hope most of all you know it's me
by the fact that I terrify your heart
and thrill you like no one else can

I hope you're never comfortable
in the way that others bore you
I pray that you'll always set my heart alight
That my heart will never be still

You think I don't know what I do to you
Darling, we've been such a long time coming
what you feel over me now, I had years to know
It's your turn. Overwhelmed, thrilled...

and scared as hell.


© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Vulnerable

Sweet Darling,
What am I supposed to do
what can I do, without you?

We've done this before
not again, so darling, please,
speak to me once more

I felt your heart rend
I saw the longing in your eyes
but let it mend!

That night, I felt it
I saw your insecurity
and I nearly melted

You're vulnerable, I know
But you're so tough
You'd never let it show

I want you to realize
I want that side, bare it,
You're safe, uncompromised

I dont know if it could be true
but I wonder, under all our love
if I scare the hell outta you

Don't let it build a wall
I want us to stand firm
together, through it all

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010