apology to God

We were foolish

we didn't listen

We thought

we were right

but our ears

could not hear

and our souls closed

Absorbed in what was

and forgetting

what needed to be

We heard You

but we forgot

why we should listen

We did as we were told

but did not follow through

What fools!

Why did we not listen?

Only You knew

what was, what is

Only You knew

what disaster

was readying,

about to strike

Oh! Disaster came!

it set our lives on fire

and brought ruin

Destruction tore through

Our hearts were crushed

The storm came

but we were not ready

It ripped through us

and we lost each other

Why did I not listen?

Why did I think

I could do it alone?

My heart was weary

and I could not go

I could not be

not without You

and yet, so I continued.

so we toiled on.

Broken beats resonated

A weak chirping

rather than a brilliant song

only sung for You.

I hold on

for You brought me out.

Alive.

Do I wait?

Or do I go on?

Make You my heart wait?

Why? Let me be alone!

Leave me with only You.

I am not meant to

merely survive.

I am not meant to

just thrive.

I am meant to prosper

absolutely in You.

You lead me on.

Lead me into your gardens

away from storms

shielded from disaster

Take me, for I come into

Your gardens

Where You lay me to rest

and put my soul at ease

in Your embrace.

You give me warm sun

and gentle rains.

It is You and You alone.

How could I ever be

if not for You

if not with You.

Be my all.

Teach me to live

Teach me to thrive

not apart from You

Show me as You have

Remind me

I could not have survived

not without Your guard.

Show me that my life

is only for You.

If ever again

I breathe with another,

teach us both

to breathe Your life

Let our hearts

not love another

before we love You.

Let me love You,

for without Your love

I cannot love even myself.