Day To Run Away

We wanted to run

to run so far away

but the doorway caught us

before we could ever leave

There's something not quite normal

behind the closed doors of our hearts

its a throbbing thats unnatural

and means that its been scarred

There was a time we ran away

but no matter how far we ran

we found that we had never left

We were still hand in hand

But when I woke up this morning

I found I was so alone

my bed was far too small,

and my feet hung off the end

I got up to the bathroom

and when I looked into the mirror

I stared right through it,

and never even glimpsed myself

After I left the mirror,

where you were staring back at me,

I tried to pour a glass of milk

but found only memories

Sometimes I feel a squeeze

a tender touch upon my hand

and I have to shake my head

to convince myself I'm not going mad

Today was supposed to be a day

where you and I both ran away

but when I finally woke up, I found

that you've been gone so very long

I'm waiting on an act of God

because we're both not quite normal

but if I wait on anything

I know my heart will crack

I opened up the freezer

and found it wasn't cold

I thought it was a heater

until I found a frozen drink

When I saw that alcohol

I nearly burst in tears

I recall the night you took me out

and brought to life my fears

Today was meant to be the day

Where I decide to run away

But no matter how far I run

I always end up back here

I thought these were tricks of the mind

but then I fell asleep and realized

it's just my life and I know nothing at all

I never can go to sleep, nor can I come to

I have sad memories, you called them cute,

It was when you were gone away

I was so lonely, I slept in your bed

I dreamed of you and the midnight sea

When you came over the other night

I dare say you were hardly recognized

all that's left is your outer shell

On the inside is mostly someone else

Today I want it to be the day

Where I close up and run away

off into my dreams,

not to be found again

I'll leave my body here for you

and you can see me when you like

but you'll see just how strange it is

to meet with someone's outer shell

Maybe when I run away, I'll find my way to you

I'll see where you've been hiding away

and when we meet in purple clouds,

We'll live without the shells that can't run away

So meet me in the third realm

Let me tell you, it's perfect there!

I went there after you broke my heart

-I was glad to have a day, just to run away...

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2009