Some Hearts need new words

What is this love?

A lovelift for no one

a lovegift for someone

Someone unmet

Someone 'introknown'

A heart so full of love

A heart set free of ache

But a love, lonelily at last

A love freely given

But unmet in 'givitation'

A love for love

a longing for love

Love for being loved

Love, raw, impassioned

A heart too full to be alone.

But this love for someone

Is not lonelily with no one

But gleemating with hope

Blossoming in utter 'jollitude'

-it needs new words to describe!

A love that waits impatient

yet is patient for its Unmet

A love not so freely given

and yet too freely dispersed,

unable to be desirated singly, lonelily

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Fool.

My heart lurches for a moment
the drink in my hand forgotten
You carved out a place in my heart
so long, so deep - so foolish am I
With a wave of shame, I realize
someone so unworthy of my heart
has taken my heart captive, strong
and held me in one place, so tight
My heart aches at your absence...

My love still beats weak inside
though I wish it would subside
A habit so ingrained in my heart
but a habit so useless from the start
I wanted to be rid of you so oft -
but you always made your way back
How did you take me so captive?
so enslaved to your heart and self?
It was the last my heart could want.

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Last Goodbye

He had no idea
no, he'll never know.
Never know what he had
Never know what could've been.

He ended it.
Stopped it so cold,
He left my heart still burning
He never knew what could've been.

He had no idea
How much I loved
or my heart was brimming
when he told me we would be no more

It was cold
my world shattered
I hardly had time to know
What had hit me, before he was gone

My heart was
so full of love and life
and my dreams were ready
my life asking to be lived and shared

Then he was
gone. No warning
Just a love that never was
a chaser who's flame had fizzled.

I so wished
for a path back to him
a life with him, another chance
but hurt keeps us apart, still broken

My dear,
You don't know
What you've said no to
What a colorful life you could've had.

My love,
You have no idea
What chance you turned down
When you told my heart goodbye, for the last time.

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Dreamer and a dream

She was just a dreamer
he was living her dream
While she worked hard
to get out of her small town
to pursue, to live her dream
He lived it, sighing for less

She worked behind a bar
ignoring her sorrows
He sat at a bar
drowning his sorrows in drink
His frustrations were her joy
and she could not see how
he was such a thankless boy

Once she loved him dear
but he quick forgot her
when they were far apart
She had wished to live that life
together with him
but he couldnt see her for her joy
he couldn't love her joy at all.

She was just a dreamer
While he lived her dream
But she knew, someday,
it would be more than a dream....

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

A Love's End, So Fateful

Thank you, at last
for a gift so lovely
a gift that broke me
For a poison too familiar
For tears not unfamiliar
Your love was never
too sweet, too soft
because your love?
Never truly was.

Your love never could
be all mine ever would
your mind still young
you were such a child
with a heart too afraid
and a love that couldnt
nay - didn't know how-
how to take risks, to be
to be fully, completely
entirely in love, with me.

I say me, yes, only me
Not chasing another girl
following after other skirts
skirts not my own, not me
You heart was never true
and my heart always knew
but my heart, in love,
did as hearts do - overlooked.
Overlooked, and denied ---
and oh, how my heart cried

So thank you, fated lover
for your disappearance
for a heartbreak so fatal
a love's end so fateful
We were never meant to be
and now, thanks to you
I can finally clearly see
Tears cleansed my eye
and what I knew to be-
that you were not, nay,
could not be half that man
not the man I needed.
Now I can wait anew
for that man, better than you!

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Blank Verse

Rediscovered some unrhyming iambic pentameter I wrote 2 years back.
Enjoy!

Ill-worn soul, more worthless than specks of dirt

I purposed not to be so low a fool!

Black, serpentine lusts ensnare thy poor heart

Mine heart spattered so too, could not away

O damn spot! Charge not my heart as vixen!

O mar of my soul! Why mark you me cur?

Why make you me ready with loves heartstrings pluck'd?

"Despair and hope make thee ridiculous"!

How you spurn me! My wrath doth boil in me

Give thy venom! Thou'st already poison'd my heart,

With malice, burden'd it. Anger burns my cheeks!

Thy angry charge, not desert of my crime!

Exasperated youth has broken my flesh

And oh! yours, the self-same burden has brought.

There is but fire in thy heart! Of lovers valor!

Brimstone in thy liver, as betroth'ed guard!

Excellence, dear heart, why thou bids't me silent?

Well wounded, love doth beg me mute and blind

Nay! my soul acheth not for banishment!

O, tell me not to hence from thy sweet sight

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2008, renewed copyright 2010

Slow Down.

 

What would have happened

what could have been,

if time could have slowed...

In slow motion,

I would have seen

your heart as it skipped

skipped a beat

as you tried to tell me

tell me you loved me

But I was too quick

I knew the moment

but passed it by

flew by it too fast

Slowed down,

I would have seen

the selfishness

of other accusations

And we would still be.

But I listened too quick

I thought too fast

and felt too much

and I lost all I loved

I lost what was dear to me

Had we slowed down

You could have seen,

you would have felt

how my heart loved

you could have seen

the adoration in my voice

Heard the love

in my embrace

But you were too quick

Your mind raced too fast

You saw things 

not as they were

Speed distorted love

And now I find myself

Alone, and lonely

When I'd rather be 

with you

in your arms

listening to your heart beat

I wish I weren't

Alone. Lonely.

My heart's still brimming

brimming with love

a love that hurts so bad

What can I do with a heartache

For a love just reignited in me

A love that wasn't re-met...

How can I grieve...?

I just can't let my heart cry

Somehow I still hold on

I can't let go, though I know

I need to forget you--

Just once more.

But somehow?

I'm sure you'd meet me

You'd just find me

and still love me. again...

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Visions of Night

The stars are hung
from the the ceiling of sky
like tear droplets
lit up by a distant joy,
against the dark cloak of night

Like sparkling diamonds
twinkling in a deep blue sea
Shooting stars are a glimmer
of hope, for those who wish
their hearts were strong enough to see

It seems we've long forgot
the soft blanket of night
that once served to inspire
'fore bright screens & neon lights
shrouded visions of night from our eyes

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

A Little Romance

The doors swung open 

There you were

Glorious in your fedora

and handsome in that jacket

Cappuccino in one hand

and music in your ear

Both were quick forgotten

as your gaze turned my way

A little Italian romance

A little smooth French talk

Your heart was so sweet

and your speech sincere

As you beckoned me to come,

to leave my apron and towel

My heart skipped a beat

Hot coffee in hand, forgot

We could have caught the train

we could have caught the ferry

But we just walked on

The smell of snapdragons in the air

With a daisy tucked in my hair

Your cologne still on my sleeve

I watched the doors swing shut

visions of you, lingered through the night

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Tears in my Smile

This time it seemed right
thought you would fight
fight to keep my heart

Don't know why I held on
thought you were gone
looks like I was right

Wish I could get over
-wouldn't gloss over,
wish I could be over you

You left me, hung me out to dry
seems like this time we didn't try
You left my heart in love with you

You were ever on my mind
but in the end you weren't so kind
as you let me know - it was over

Though I don't want to cry
smiles leave tears in my eye
and I wish you'd be more for me

Together we built our dreams
but oh, I know- nothing is as it seems
I feel I was alone from the start

My heart has ached enough
But I can't pretend to be tough
You make it hard to get over you

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010