Friday, June 25, 2010

your short goodbye

So there it was
a short goodbye
Now I find a memory
playing through my eye

I recall the colors of the sounds
the tastes of what I saw
and the smells
of all the emotions felt

There's a sadness to my smile
a sweetness to my tears
I wish joy would stay awhile
though there's a lightness to my fears

I reach out to touch, to feel
But there's nothing there
The sounds and sights of now
disperse any memory I longed to hold

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010


I could tell
by your voice
that your heart needed it
to be set free
to take some time to soar
to sing with the angels
to know His heart
as you haven't
not in so long

But when you said goodbye
for now, only for now,
just for a little while
something about it
it was different
so broken, so heavy
there was such a finality
something said....
it's finished.
no more.

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Now you're gone.

I would be lying to myself
to say it didn't matter
My heart would be deceived
to think it didn't shatter

The tears drip down my face
and the moments drag on
Despite promises you speak
I feel that you've gone

The knot ties tight in my throat
it sticks firm with tears I can't swallow
Though I wish I could ignore it
Your absence makes my stomach feel hollow

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Sunday, June 20, 2010


Sometimes Im almost afraid
afraid it'll happen once more
That I won't escape it
It will follow me around
That curse of betrayal
The wound of being left
That you, like he,
will just leave me,
leave me alone
leave without a word
without a second thought

Sometimes I fear
you will do just the same
But then I'm reminded
of the heartache
and I realize
I don't care at all
What he once did
made him unworthy of
my while. of me.
If you did the same,
you would be as he

But this time i know
You're not the same
Neither is my heart
so gullible as before
I'm cold at the thought
but only cold to hurt
to the chance of pain
Not to the opportunity
to love, to feel
to cherish
to hold you near

Is it so wrong to say
I don't care that you go,
I only care that you stay?

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Friday, June 18, 2010

Brimming with Longing

Where are the words
when you long to speak?

Where are the stories
that you feel, ache, and wish to tell?

Where is the song
when your heart wants to sing.
again. a new song this time.

What is it when your heart
brims with longing?

Where does it come from,
why is it there now,
and where was it before?

My heart is filled just so.

Because of aches, pain
I know I'm alive.
I remember, and breathe.

Can such ache ever be settled?
Truly? Or slightly?
Do we forget that we long?
Or forget how to yearn at all

I find the things I seek
are happiest, not when fulfilled
but when lived with love and laughter.

But longing without love or future
is bleak, hopeless and unsettled.

A yearning with no rest, and no hope
met with unhappiness is pain.

Where are the words,
when you want most, only to speak?
But there is nothing to say.

Where are the stories,
when you long to do nothing more than tell?
Tell stories you feel, but do not know.

Where is the new song,
when you crave a song unsung, a music unheard?

When your heart has run dry, and the music is stale.

Where is the relief,
when your heart is filled with longing,
but life is met with hopelessness, and unrest...

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Wiser Hearts

All these years, through time gone by
Beyond our troubles, you're by my side

What we thought lost, was never gone

It is not just renewed -- No, it's not the same
Our hearts and eyes have seen much change

The first time we glanced, and looked again
there was a smirk we both had to know

Never could we have known with what pains we'd grow.

Sweet and innocence turned to vile moments
a meanness unplanned, a heartaches bemoaned.

But after such time, we learned the better
and began to grow; closer, wiser through the unknown

You know my new heart and I, yours,
we've separated from our past selves...through a Great divorce.

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Friday, June 4, 2010

War of the Heart and Mind

It's late, once more,
as tears prick my eyes
which do I trust?
My heart, or my mind?
My heart say yes,
it loves someone so
and longs so much more

But is it my mind that fights?
Is it my thoughts that rebel?
My memories, I think,
do not serve me too well.
Do I love, or do I not?
The two war so fierce
so I cannot know myself

Wherein lies the truth?
Is love my heart's pride?
What know my thoughts!
Memories are oft changed
and bliss is oft forgot
overshadowed, confused.
ill memories seem more true

I'm terrified to find out
which part of me is wrong
What path do I take?
Is one worth more risk
than one more heartache?
Heart and mind have warred 'nough.
This locked box, what does it hide?

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010

Tuesday, June 1, 2010


I should've known
from the start
It wasn't your fault,
but her jealous heart

All to trusting
we can be
So broken,
gullible, naive

Those trials came
that broke us
The pain came,
muddled our focus

But now that it's over
I'm only grateful
We've only grown
I never lost you after all

© copyright by Michèle Aimée Lahaie, 2010