A Life of Midnight Adventures

Monday, February 22, 2010

Fury

Full fury
Fury of a mending heart
A fury youve yet to know
A fury that can come
as a flurry
but take you by storm

Fury
like hell cannot match
A fury which drives passion
like this heart has never
had a glance at - never seen before
A passion thats ignited anew

Passion
is the drive that brings life
and healing to a heart
once shattered
Passion is what mends it aright
not like...

Heart's fury
which drives one mad-
fury lets a heart mend
but you'll find that it bends
a heart that heals in fury
will heal malformed, twisted

Monday, February 15, 2010

I love you... I love you not...

My heart beat
one. two.
three and four.
My heart throbbed
bum. babum.
and missed a beat
babum-bum

Ahh, let me sing to you
I want you to know
what my heart sings
and what comes and goes
throbbing in bitter throes

Let me tell you whats on my mind
I want you to see the very things
to which you have never paid mind
The heartache and break I have
and the confusion in you i find

I love you
I love you not
Leave me
but don't go away

My skin crawls at the thought
of what you've done
and what you might do again

But I feel so nauseous, nauseous,
nauseous at the thought of leaving
of never having you by my side

Don't mistake me, my dear
I loved you once, by the water
and I kissed you many times on the sand

But that boy I knew was left
standing by the waterside
when your mind said goodbye

This new fool came
and stood in your place
though he wore your face

I want to tell you
don't want to tell you
i love you
don't love you

The sweet boy has made his way back
to my heart, and at the sight of his eyes
glittering again so very bright
I just cannot deny him - stay with me
but yet I fear the fear itself, the fright

Darling, I miss you sometimes
but don't take me wrong
my fear is not unfounded
for that time when you broke our hearts
and left me dumbfounded....

I loved you
can't love you
want to love you
don't trust loving you....

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

deserving better

with the tears rushing down my face
i realize these wounds are still
far too fresh to fade away

I think about you one last time
but i cant let myself make that mistake
not again. so i turn my back on you

How could you let it take you so long?
To realize I was the one you'd been asking for?
That i was all you had been waiting for

Why did you have to play my heart
i wish it could sound like sweet melody
instead its a broken string, so out of tune

Why did it take you ruining what we had
to finally find that I was the one
who would always love you, and was strong

It happened so fast, and Im happy Im free
but i hoped i'd be to you, what you were to me
instead my heart still cries like a storm in the night

How could you not see that our hearts were right
and that I had fire, my heart brimming with love,
arms to carry you through, and passion that was true

Why did you have to say that through your mistakes
that you finally could see that you and i were meant to be?
Your lying cheating heart is not good enough for me.

You say Im what you've been hoping, wishing, praying for
But all this time, what i deserve is what you ignore
I deserve a heart much better; a heart that will- to me- be true.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Hopeless Romantic

Darling
My heart
you have taken
You hopeless romantic,
if I said I could not love afresh
you know I was mistaken

Sir Knight,
I have a secret
a secret love for you
How I came under your spell!
I know I'm a dear hopeless romantic
but I hoped never to tell

Sweetheart,
you stole my heart
Though I said I would not
let my hear go, so soon, to another
I told myself nothing would ever last

Not after love's last pains

How I was mistaken!
oh my heart you've taken
My dear, I hope you're true
If your words are not as they say
Then go - I cannot bear to be forsaken
not so soon, not once more

I'm smitten

by your semantics

Darling, how can I speak?

I know my heart gives me away

Don't ruin this hopeless romantic,

Not with silly loveless antics

Monday, January 18, 2010

healing once over

Remarkable, it seems
that to reach joy
to attain happiness
you must endure hardships
almost be broken completely

How strange it is,
to feel whole
I had to be alone
to grow
I had to sever life.

but my heart hurts
for what I've done
Though things are best
and i needed to get it right
for now, it seems worst.

All in time, as they say
but how to endure
the trouble along the way?
my stomach churns
I want to cry til sleep comes

A cold, frozen heart
feel suddenly hot
and a hard spirit feels broken
against your sudden offenses
how long until we heal again...?

empathy, apology, lonely.

My heart, so stripped
if feels tender
broken
unmended once more

How I am vulnerable
is now different
ugly
not as torn as before

How I wanted to love
but could not
loveless
but I reject you not!

My heart cries for you
for the pain caused
so terrible.
same. I once loved you too.

My soul throbs once more
I miss you so
lonely
i wish you'd not storm out the door.

unwelcome

In love and hate
sacrifices are oft made
But what mattered to me most
may have been sacrificed
for I had no love to boast

But my heart was sincere
I wanted not to lose my dear
I loved him, but what I cannot ignore
is now I could only call him friend
-my heart will welcome no more