A Life of Midnight Adventures

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Blank Verse

Rediscovered some unrhyming iambic pentameter I wrote 2 years back.
Enjoy!

Ill-worn soul, more worthless than specks of dirt

I purposed not to be so low a fool!

Black, serpentine lusts ensnare thy poor heart

Mine heart spattered so too, could not away

O damn spot! Charge not my heart as vixen!

O mar of my soul! Why mark you me cur?

Why make you me ready with loves heartstrings pluck'd?

"Despair and hope make thee ridiculous"!

How you spurn me! My wrath doth boil in me

Give thy venom! Thou'st already poison'd my heart,

With malice, burden'd it. Anger burns my cheeks!

Thy angry charge, not desert of my crime!

Exasperated youth has broken my flesh

And oh! yours, the self-same burden has brought.

There is but fire in thy heart! Of lovers valor!

Brimstone in thy liver, as betroth'ed guard!

Excellence, dear heart, why thou bids't me silent?

Well wounded, love doth beg me mute and blind

Nay! my soul acheth not for banishment!

O, tell me not to hence from thy sweet sight

Slow Down.

What would have happened

what could have been,

if time could have slowed...

In slow motion,

I would have seen

your heart as it skipped

skipped a beat

as you tried to tell me

tell me you loved me

But I was too quick

I knew the moment

but passed it by

flew by it too fast

Slowed down,

I would have seen

the selfishness

of other accusations

And we would still be.

But I listened too quick

I thought too fast

and felt too much

and I lost all I loved

I lost what was dear to me

Had we slowed down

You could have seen,

you would have felt

how my heart loved

you could have seen

the adoration in my voice

Heard the love

in my embrace

But you were too quick

Your mind raced too fast

You saw things

not as they were

Speed distorted love

And now I find myself

Alone, and lonely

When I'd rather be

with you

in your arms

listening to your heart beat

I wish I weren't

Alone. Lonely.

My heart's still brimming

brimming with love

a love that hurts so bad

What can I do with a heartache

For a love just reignited in me

A love that wasn't re-met...

How can I grieve...?

I just can't let my heart cry

Somehow I still hold on

I can't let go, though I know

I need to forget you--

Just once more.

But somehow?

I'm sure you'd meet me

You'd just find me

and still love me. again...

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

The stars are hung
from the the ceiling of sky
like tear droplets
lit up by a distant joy,
against the dark cloak of night

Like sparkling diamonds
twinkling in a deep blue sea
Shooting stars are a glimmer
of hope, for those who wish
their hearts were strong enough to see

It seems we've long forgot
the soft blanket of night
that once served to inspire
'fore bright screens & neon lights
shrouded visions of night from our eyes

Friday, July 2, 2010

A Little Romance

The doors swung open

There you were

Glorious in your fedora

and handsome in that jacket

Cappuccino in one hand

and music in your ear

Both were quick forgotten

as your gaze turned my way

A little Italian romance

A little smooth French talk

Your heart was so sweet

and your speech sincere

As you beckoned me to come,

to leave my apron and towel

My heart skipped a beat

Hot coffee in hand, forgot

We could have caught the train

we could have caught the ferry

But we just walked on

The smell of snapdragons in the air

With a daisy tucked in my hair

Your cologne still on my sleeve

I watched the doors swing shut

visions of you, lingered through the night

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Tears in my Smile

This time it seemed right
thought you would fight
fight to keep my heart

Don't know why I held on
thought you were gone
looks like I was right

Wish I could get over
-wouldn't gloss over,
wish I could be over you

You left me, hung me out to dry
seems like this time we didn't try
You left my heart in love with you

You were ever on my mind
but in the end you weren't so kind
as you let me know - it was over

Though I don't want to cry
smiles leave tears in my eye
and I wish you'd be more for me

Together we built our dreams
but oh, I know- nothing is as it seems
I feel I was alone from the start

My heart has ached enough
But I can't pretend to be tough
You make it hard to get over you

Friday, June 25, 2010

your short goodbye

So there it was
a short goodbye
Now I find a memory
playing through my eye

I recall the colors of the sounds
the tastes of what I saw
and the smells
of all the emotions felt

There's a sadness to my smile
a sweetness to my tears
I wish joy would stay awhile
though there's a lightness to my fears

I reach out to touch, to feel
But there's nothing there
The sounds and sights of now
disperse any memory I longed to hold

Finality.

I could tell
by your voice
that your heart needed it
to be set free
to take some time to soar
to sing with the angels
to know His heart
as you haven't
not in so long

But when you said goodbye
for now, only for now,
just for a little while
something about it
it was different
so broken, so heavy
there was such a finality
something said....
it's finished.
no more.